Some things make me want to laugh and cry at the same time. Obviously, the folks over on the Red and Black message board didn’t have anything constructive to say, so they turned their oh-so-sparkling intellectual weapons on little ole me:
“Gucci” says: “Ms. Versaci, it is obvious from your posts in this thread that your ranting and raving is a thinly-veiled attempt to cope with your own guilt and regret at not having reported your perpetrators from the past. Blaming sexism or peoples’ antagonism for your inaction is just as bad as slut-shaming rape victims for being raped. It is not other peoples’ fault (or choice, for that matter) that you chose not to press charges. Your no-means-no mantra is obviously a transparent defense mechanism attempting to deal with the reality of whatever happened, and such emotional and vindictive arguments are weak at best and whiny at worst.
It is true that just because someone wasn’t convicted doesn’t mean that they didn’t commit a crime. Likewise just because someone cries rape to the police doesn’t mean that they were raped either. Duke Lacrosse scandal, anyone? “
Kacie Versaci responds: “Hey thanks! Next time I need to be psycho-analyzed, I’ll come to you instead of my therapist! That was the best free advice I’d ever received! Thank you so so so so so much for showing me that all my feminist notions and desire to defend rape victims and advocate change in our patriarchy is just…what was it? A “thinly-veiled attempt to deal with my own guilt”? Because as a fully grown adult, I obviously can’t make any sort of sense of my own feelings or intellectual ideas since my kooky feminine demanor and issues wrapped up with my personal sexual assualt isses clouds my mind and renders me incapable of any sort of rational thought process or philosophical reasoning. And, further more, I am just a big damn coward, too afraid to admit this, so I really commend you for bringing to light, for me and all the readers on this board, my personal issues, even though you do not have the misfortune of personally knowing me. You really are somthing, to be able to diganose me via comment-message board. You should really try to cash in on this talent. Thank you!!! “
“Ha!” says: “Maybe she likes to wear her “I didn’t press charges” claim as a badge of honor, like she’s an expert on rape. Maybe a few more unreported rapes will make her a guru. She probably has a very discerning vaginal palate by this point. Maybe she didn’t report it because she lost her phone in her own cavernous vagina. After all, you can’t call 911 without going elbow-deep into your birth canal to rescue your motorola. Kind of like digging through couch cushions for change and such. Nice priorties, though Versaci: letting a petty occurence like RAPE slide a time or two. As for me, five is my limit on rape. Then I call the cops…no matter what. “
Kacie Versaci says: “Again, as I thanked the above poster, I must thank you too. I realize now that I am such a big old slut that its obvious how and why those “rapes” happened. In fact, the reason I didn’t report them was because I enjoyed them SO MUCH at the time!! In fact, my vag is SO FUCKING HUGE both the rapes occured at the same time because heaven knows my giant vagina is too large to hold onto to just one penis at once. I was concerned and thought about going to my gyno, but it looks like I don’t need to since I now know the pain is from various objects getting sucked in. So many people to fire this week–my gyno, my therapist! And all thanks to the super kind and knowledgable folks on this message board. I knew this was a stimulating market place of ideas, but I never realized that it was also a wellspring of wonderful, inspiring advice and personal evaluations by such budding experts!!
THANK YOU EVERYONE!!
Please, if anyone has anymore advice for me, the skank who was raped twice and utilizes her feminist rhetoric to help her deal with her own guilt-ladden issues, the same girl with the vast vagina whom nobody loves, please email me at stella7@uga.edu or visit my blog: http://dirtyrottenfeminist.wordpress.com (which I am now considering changing the name the “The Humbled Whore”) I need any kind stranger’s help, please. Oh, and note I will only take messages from those hiding behind the cloak of anonominty, since those who use their real names or other identifiable tags cannot be trusted!!!
THANK YOU!! I HAVE SEEN THE LIGHT!!
I might go find Jesus next. “
Ok. Just let that sink in for a second.
I am so lucky to have such caring and kind classmates who feel so empathetic towards me they are willing to halt any sort of intellectual debate and begin talking purely about my personal issues and do such a wonderful job of uncovering my severe mental, emotional, and physical damages in light of my sexual assualt (which heaven knows I dreamt up/enjoyed/deserved anyway!) that I feel no more urges to want to defend women’s rights, and I am ready to retire the label “feminist” since it is obvious to me that men and women have reached equality!!! [/sarcasm]
I really am done with the sarcasm now, I think.
First of all, I want to say that I ALWAYS use my full name when talking on these boards because I am not ashamed of my opinions and have no problem with connecting my name to them. Others, however, are a bunch of GODDAMNED COWARDS WHO WOULD NEVER HAVE THE COURAGE TO SAY THOSE THINGS SIGNED BY THEIR REAL NAMES, LET ALONE TO MY FACE!
Secondly, none, I repeat NONE of these asshats know the circumstances under which these assualts took place. Very few epople besides me and the other parties involved do either. Did it ever occur to them that the reasons I didn’t report them were complicated? Then again, I am just a stupid, foolish woman anyway, who knows if I can be trusted with any personal responsibility.
I find it appalling that in an attempt to more “personalize” the discussion of rape that I came forward with mine, and all I got in return was slut-shamed, victim-blaming, jokes, insults, and assumptions. I shudder to think the sort of verbal assualts I would face had I actually reported the damn things.
I just want to say Fuck You to every person, via the internet or real life, who thinks its ok to pesonally attack me on the grounds that I have been raped. You are all assholes, plain and simple.

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April 26, 2008 at 9:41 pm
Holly
This breaks my heart! There are just so, so many things wrong with those kids’ responses–but it is all too familiar.
April 26, 2008 at 10:09 pm
Ashley
I’m sorry Kacie–these guys are just unbelievable.
Stay strong.
April 26, 2008 at 10:16 pm
Solidarity
[...] slut-shaming, and general assholery, and some of them have turned on her, even going so far as to blame her for her own rapes [...]
April 26, 2008 at 10:22 pm
Nora
Kacie, I love your confidence and your willingness to own everything you say with your own name. Keep up the great work! Your powerful voice is inspiring and your intervention in those comments deeply needed.
April 26, 2008 at 11:31 pm
kelly
The more I find out about people, the less I want to know.
The things people will do and say to hurt others. The things they said to you under the cover of the Internet are truly disgraceful.
I have to keep reminding myself that out there, there are people like you. For every one of those shitcocks there are ten of you. Brave and willing to stand up for people who can’t stand up for themselves yet.
I can’t even imagine the mentality behind such horrific comments. I’d like to think it is immaturity or a lack of forethought but I suspect it is deeper than that. I fear that for some people, their characters are irredeemably flawed, beyond hope.
Thank you for what you are doing.
April 27, 2008 at 12:28 am
goingtomontreal
I want to say thank you to everyone for your support. I don’t want to let people (I don’t even know…except in the case of Gucci/Don Quotixe (sp?) who has admitted they know me in real life…?) get to me and try to derail me with hate speech (let’s just call it what it is) to try and distract me from my cause.
It hurts. It does. But I can deal with it. I am more angry that these peopledon’t even understand my actual points and are more worried about making fun of me/nit picking my arguments/creating straw man arguments than actually trying to digest what I (and a few others) are saying.
April 27, 2008 at 3:17 am
Mike
Hi Kacie,
Those comments are so fucked up. Thanks for your comments though, its important that people hear that it is a big deal and a serious crime!
May 3, 2008 at 4:20 pm
On “Real Rape” and Rape Apologists : The Curvature
[...] that I have such immense respect for those who do publicly talk about their own sexual assaults. Because I know what happens. And honestly, as I began speaking out more and more, I knew that it would eventually happen to me, [...]
May 9, 2008 at 12:55 pm
maria
good lord, I can’t believe there are people who would comment like “Gucci” and “Ha.” it’s people like these who make it more difficult for girls to come out about being sexually abused. =(
May 12, 2008 at 5:16 pm
Daan
Miss Versaci,
I came across your blog through other feminist blogs and oh my… It’s stomach turning that people seem not able to understand why you and many women with you don’t report sexual (and other) assaults, even when it’s right in front of them. Exactly because the way these ignorant and hateful persons think and talk (like Ha, can not believe that kind of speech: it’s just too disgusting and insensitive). I was almost murdered by my ex-boyfriend (like in many cases of assault: no stranger!) and did not report it. Too much confusion, too much pain, afraid to be not taken seriously, afraid of being judged or doubted… People like Ha and Gucci are the reason women do not speak up about violence directed against them! They are the ones that create this silence and if you speak up eventually, they blame you for breaking the silence after all. Blame the victim: it’s sick.
Keep up your blog, I will certainly keep reading. Peace and love…
May 12, 2008 at 6:48 pm
goingtomontreal
Daan–
Thank you so much for your support and sharing your horrifying story as well. It sickens me to know that we still have the hurdle of making people AWARE of such atrocities before we can even begin to try and solve them.
Thank you for stopping by.
Best wishes to you!
–Kacie